random thoughts

when i was M's age i wanted small things. things that i could put in my pocket. tiny baby dolls. a cherry pit to put in a matchbox. M wants big things. if it is a doll, it has to be her size, or at least not too small.

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on our way to the store to purchase seeds to plant M kept on crying. apparently i overexplained something that she already knew. i told her i was just talking, organising things in MY mind. i reminded her that she just needed to tell me to stop talking. she said she couldn't understand ANYTHING anymore. drama.

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some of the purple fireweed seeds that we planted in our yard last year are growing. no news on other flowers yet. i think it is still early to tell.

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we went OFF TV cold turkey, and everyone is happy. we will watch something once a week or so. M is sleeping much better, no nighttime tantrums. maybe it is just a fluke, just a good phase. she has phases. M is very health oriented, and i explained to her how TV, being flat and only pictures, was influencing her brain in a way that she couldn't sleep well. she was fine with that.

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our library is open only 6 hours a week now. three times a week, 2 hours in the evening. this is upsetting.

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we are going to sew a soft cradle of M's design. and doll clothes. i need to find patterns on line. we already got some fabric.

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i need to remember that M is not me, and in many ways is not even like me. i think she is only moody like me. heh heh.

good night.